As I lie there 4am in the morning, it got
me thinking, what does one give up for one’s career and for love? It’s almost
like the theory, do you follow your head or your heart…
Once you have made the decision, there’s no
turning back… because everything that you have given up; starts to walk out of
your life. The things you never realized you had, the things you never thought
you’d miss and the things that you never expected to happen… Almost instantly,
you world has change so dramatically that you feel instantly lost. It’s like in
the movies where there’s a short pause of darkness and time forwards to the
next scene – the choice that you have made. And how is one to know when it is
right or wrong? It is only after you have experienced the choice you have made
that you realize what was more important to you and what did make you happy…
I was told to never regret anything,
because the decision you made was once what you wanted at the time. You are
living the life that you wanted so there shouldn’t be any regrets… non at all.
Life is a string of choices, one after another.
Sometimes we make good ones and sometimes bad. Does our experiences help us to
make better ones or do we just shelter and protect ourselves from the pain and
from being hurt? Do we learn to shut people out and not opening our hearts… are
we just becoming more cynical?
“when you are young, your whole life is
about the pursuit of fun. Then you grow up and learn to be cautious, you could
break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don’t leap
at all because there’s not always someone there to catch you. And in life,
there’s no safety net…
When did it stop being fun and start being
scary? Maybe mistakes are what make our fate… without them what would shape our
lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course, we wouldn’t fall in love or be
who we are…”
They say that when you are unsure about a
decision, toss a coin and when it’s spinning in the air, your heart will want
it to land on a certain side. So regardless what the coin toss was, you already
know your preference.
Do we just try to avoid making a choice
because we are afraid? When it comes to the matters of the heart, do we
avoid decisions so that we won’t experience what we have in the past? Do we
avoid asking questions because we are afraid of rejection and disappointment?
In the end, how do we make the ‘perfect’
choice when it comes to deciding our ‘significant other half’? Don’t we all
just want to have a deep connection with someone who makes us laugh? Someone
who when you think about them, you can’t wipe the smile off your face? Someone
that you feel like you can be yourself around… someone that makes you
feel comfortable… someone that you don’t want to lose… And sometimes we make a
choice because we want to perhaps grow it and see where this could all lead to…
I mean if we don’t try, how do we know?
Does love conquer all?
I recently watched the movie ‘like crazy’
and in the movie, the main characters both broke others' hearts/tried to give
up and eventually gave up so much of their own lives just to be with the one
that they really love… is their choices/their actions like crazy? Does ‘love’
arouse us to be in the state of mental unsteadiness…? Are we irrational,
illogical, chemically imbalanced, even considered mentally ill when we fall in
love? If love was a health condition, why hasn’t a cure being formulated? What
if there was a drug to cure heartache… or is that why clubs/bars/house parties
in the suburbs are filled with singletons on substance/alcohol abuse to ‘cure’
their heartache/problems/worries? Is the temporary surge of endorphins, this
chemical balancing act to allow you to be happy just for that little while, the
solution to our problems?
Or are these just temporary escapes, short
term anesthetics to allow us to run away from our problems and never really
solving them? Or are we just utilizing our own built-in self-defense mechanism:
denial. “Denial serves as a coping device; it provides a safe place to hide the
bad news until we are able to face reality. It allows your mind to gradually
accept the unacceptable and is, at times, a blessing.”
I suppose there’s never the perfect choice,
nor is there a perfect answer. No matter which path we take, no matter who we
choose, there’s always going to be two sides to a coin. After all, every
decision we make - something’s got to give…
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